True Self Journal

Luciana brings a range of themes to her first session, including that of being the surviving twin in a case of vanishing twin syndrome. When asked what a successful outcome would look like for the work we are undertaking, it would be to find a sense of inner spaciousness and peace, for her and her family.

Previous sessions with Lisa have focused on her desire to create community, taking us first into her maternal line who laboured in cotton mills, a workforce known also as the white slaves of England. This session opens with a new theme: a desire for “healing from betrayal”.

I distinctly had the experience of slipping across into death. The realisation flashed in me “yes I know this, I know how it is to die”. It felt so familiar, like I had been present at the moment of my own death many many times.

Keith is one of a team of 3 delivering online tuition within a Further Education college. Recently a team member had left and his replacement is missing deadlines for tasks. He wonders how to enact good leadership within a team of equals … a few weeks later he contacts me to say the constellation played out in a shockingly accurate way!

The theme of creating community is present again for Lisa and we spend some time getting clearer what that means for her. She is not nourished by environments that have supported her in the past and have revolved around drug taking or alcohol, she is looking for something new and we explore what that might look like.

When it comes to manifesting money, Richard feels he exists within a narrow band that allows him to rent a home and make ends meet every month, but never more. If we explore what having “more” feels like it gives rise to feelings of exposure and threat.

Myself and Jane use constellations to explore items from a family archive. She has a diary belonging to her deceased mother … reading the diary presents a perplexing and distressing window, into the mental health problems suffered by her

Lisa had previously operated a successful career from what she described as an “aggressive place”. She described her rallying cry as “I will save the everyone and the world”. She had recently collapsed into a period of downtime. She was ready to move forward now, but did not know how to do so in a “softer and more feminine way”.

Rene presented with persistent sinus infection and constipation; feeling that something is held back in their expression, when they have these ailments … The querent had learned to “hold something back” so as to not be like the Grandfathers, and this manifested in their symptoms.

Catherine’s themes: overwhelming anxiety when approaching her painting leading to a creative block … in her subconscious she was aware of her stillborn siblings and had a life long pattern of over compensating for their absence. She realised she was creating not just for herself, but for their missing lives too.